Getting My ZZZZ's ...

I haven't been getting enough ... of my zzz's that is (ok, I'm a little deprived of the other, too, but my hubby and I are TIRED! LOL)

Ok, seriously, I'm severely sleep deprived. I think I'm more tired now than I was when my children were babies. I was thinking that it's probably effecting my weight loss. And I'm right. I have heard from several sources that sensible eating+exercise+adequate sleep=success.

It's true. When I'm fatigued, I tend to reach for drinks loaded with caffeine, anything with chocolate, and comfort foods (and it's not apple comfort, either). And I dread my daily workout when I'm tired. The effort just isn't there. My body seems to crave tons of sugar ... and not in the form of fructose ... I'm talking BAD sugar ... or some days I crave salty, crunchy when I'm fatigued. Again, it's not celery sprinkled with sea salt ... it's Miss Vickies or Doritos ... or Ketchup Lays (ah, heaven, I'm in heaven ... LOL)

Ok ... back on track here, I'm drooling ...

So, I joined a "solution for not dieting" website and I get email updates weekly with helpful hints and tidbits. Yesterday's email was about "Sleeping Your Fat Away" (gee, sign me up! I'll be snoring and skinny in no time!)

Ok, I'm getting off track again ... must be the sleep deprived thing ...

So there's apparently a link between our hormones (and the good Lord knows us women have plenty of them!) and our eating behaviour. One type of hormone that is responsible for hunger (I'll call it the "G" hormone) is fighting with another type of hormone that is responsible for making us feel full (I'll call it the "L" hormone) ... the "L" hormone tells us to stop eating. So when you're sleep deprived, guess what hormone increases and which one decreases? The big "G" goes nutso, and the big "L" takes a vacation. So it's a vicious cycle if you keep depriving yourself of a good night's sleep. And that's me lately. I go to bed by 11:30 p.m. - midnight, but I'm up by 5:30. So my "G" hormone has partied all night and been popping uppers and is raring to go when I get up. My "L" hormone has decided it's vacation location is fabulous and is never coming back. I'm doomed. I should give my "G" hormone a name, 'cause it's stickin' around by the sound of it. It's the Big Kahuna.

So I obviously need more sleep ... I'm fat, I have dark circles no cover-up or million dollar cream on earth can hide, and I'm stupid. I'm not giving my body the crucial sleep it needs to recover every night. So my brain can't recover, either. I feel like I have ADHD every day, but it's not early onset Alzheimer's as I suspected. It's sleep deprivation. And that darn "G" hormone.

So I'm going to start going to bed at 10pm (that's gonna be weird). Hope I can talk hubby into it too ... maybe the "other" deprivation will improve, too! LOL

I can't believe I'm discussing my sex-life on Blogspot. I've seriously lost it.

I have a date with my pillow, and I'm gonna keep it.


Thanks for reading!
Janet xo

UUGGHH BLAH

I'm having an ugh day. Got no energy today day. Want to sleep all day day. Do I really have to work? day. Want to eat everything in site day. Blame it on the hormones day. I always try to be so positive in my blogs, but today just isn't one of those days. I'm not looking for pity ... I don't need that. I just need Monday to be over ... I needed to do something to break the monotany so I blogged. I blogged about feeling BLAH. All I can say is UUGGHH. *sigh*
It's a good thing I don't have any Doritos in the house! 'Cause they'd be gone!!
I've drank enough water today to put out a forest fire ... the only exercise I've felt like doing is the walk to the bathroom to pee 100 times with all this darn water going through me. I've been told to drink more water when I'm tired and feeling blah ... it's not working. I could go for a gin and 7 or something like that!! Now that would get rid of my blahs! (no panty-remover jokes, please! LOL)
That's all I've got to say ... nothing really intelligent nor uplifting. Tomorrow will be better. I know it. Then I'll post a happy blog! (gag me)

Thanks for reading!
Janet xo

Gaining Insight and Courage

I had my first gain at WW today. Yup. 1.4 pounds up. I was humiliated. I wasn't going to go this morning, as I had a feeling I was going to gain, but I mustered up the courage and drove all the way into Oshawa and was determined to step on that scale, whether I was going to be heavier or not. I missed last week's weigh in with going to Kanata to meet Kaylie May. It was totally worth it, don't get me wrong, my great niece is adorable! But my week, as I stated in my last blog, wasn't great (food wise). I was very carefree over the weekend, and it seemed to continue from there. Come Monday, then Tuesday, until Thursday, I was so busy trying to catch up from being away for 2 days I didn't "write what I bite" ... why has my life gotten so crazy that I fall immensely behind if I want to go away for a couple of days?? ... that's for another blog, another day, I guess! Anyway, the week got away from me ... before I knew it, it was Thursday evening and I was in a panic.
So yes, insight into my gain shows that I can't have another week like this ... just eating whatever, whenever ... 2 eat-outs (that weren't REALLY bad but weren't PERFECT either), snacking late in the evening, and leaving my Wii-Fit Plus workouts to the last minute, not putting in quite enough effort on the board.
Coincidentally enough, I decided to grocery shop on the way home from WW this morning, and whom should I meet up with in the store? The owner and personal trainer at the Curves club where I've been a member, but haven't attended, in a couple of months. More humiliation. I promised her she would see me on Monday, or next week some time for sure. Now I've done it ... I've committed to going and HAVE to show up. But that's a good thing! Imagine how well I'll do each week if I work out at Curves AND do my Wii Fit Plus! Crap ... do I really have the energy for all that?! Guess I'll find out next week!! Must have courage! No more gains!

Thanks for reading!
Janet xo

Catching Up ...

OMG (don't ya just love texting jargon!!) ... I just realized that I missed my Factual Friday post last week, and it's actually been 12 days since I wrote a blog. I have been consumed with work, weeding the garden, but have managed to squeeze in a trip to Kanata to meet my newborn great niece! She is a sweetie! I am smitten! Miss Kaylie May has stolen my heart! I get to see her again in 2 weeks ... I can't wait!

Mother's Day has come and gone, I hope all you amazing moms out there had an awesome day and were spoiled! I came home from Kanata to a lovely bbq'd meal courtesy of my hunky hubby ... and lovely cards and gifts from my 2 incredible children! It was a great day ... other than the cold and SNOW??? What was with that? Mother Nature must be suffering from bipolar disorder or something, because that was just WRONG to wake up to snow Mother's Day morning?! If April showers bring May flowers, what the heck does snow in May bring?

I've been so busy I have found it hard to focus on my WW plan. I'm still Wii Fit Plus"ing" regularly, and am happy to report that my BMI has dropped 3 points, my balance has improved, and I'm down a little more weight. But when I'm busy I tend to eat and then I forget what I eat, don't write it down in my tracker, then at the end of the day when I think back to what I've eaten throughout the day I'm mortified at what I've consumed. Can't even begin to count the points. Probably way, way over my allowed 27 points for the day. Today is Thursday ... weigh in day is Saturday, and I missed last Saturday with going to Kanata (but it was totally worth it!) But I can sure tell that I need to weigh in EVERY week and if I bite it I need to write it. It's so easy to slip up for a day or two, then that day or two leads to 3 or 4, which leads to a week ... which is now a week and a half. EEEK!!

I've got some catching up to do BIGTIME!! I'll catch y'all up after weigh in on Saturday!

L8R!

Thanks for reading,

Janet xo

Teaching an old dog new tricks ...

Yup, I'm the "old dog". Gotta learn some new tricks. Get out of my stubborn, set, "fat person" ways. This was the discussion at my Saturday morning WW meeting today. Old habits die hard. Our WW leader said it takes 6-8 weeks to develop a new habit.
Being positive, I looked at alot of habits I have changed for the better lately. I got my family on skim milk over the last 2 years. (we were 1% drinkers) I switched from canola oil to olive oil. I quit buying potato chips on a regular basis (we used to eat 3-4 bags in one weekend). I am learning to cook alot healthier, and my hunky hubby is totally into this ... he's cooking, too (I love that!) He and I are also cutting WAY back on diet pop ... asparatame to be exact. Nasty stuff. I also gave up alcohol ... I was never a big drinker, and I still enjoy a small glass of wine now and then ... but it's just not worth it to me to waste 3-4 points on a beer or mixed drink when I could be eating instead!! LOL Yup! Shove that Budweiser aside honey, bring on the buffet!! I am also exercising almost every day ... Wii Fit Plus is so fun, I'm able to do 45-60 minutes a day! And I'm walking outside, too. I'm moving way more than I used to! It's become a habit!

Our leader mentioned about how we can join WW for a second, third, or more time and get back into the same frame of mind that "oh, I've hit that plateau again, it's happening all over again". I'm like that. Past weight loss ventures would typically see me losing 10-12 pounds in the first 2-3 weeks, then slowing down, eventually coming to a halt around 20 pounds lost. Failing. Beating myself up. Hitting that familiar plateau. Jenny Craig was a bit better, I hit about 30 pounds then "gave up". Went right back to my old way of eating, I was so sick of crappy, processed, frozen and pre-packaged food. I lost my gallbladder a year later. Coincidence? Probably not.

So this old dog isn't giving up this time. I'm making a lifestyle change ... bad habits change to good habits ... gradually. My weight isn't coming off as quick this time ... just had my third weigh in this morning, lost another 1.6 pounds, for a grand total of 7.8 in 3 weeks. Not great, but not bad either. Healthy amount of weight to lose. I would like to lose 10 pounds a month, but I'm not going to beat myself up if I don't ... as long as that scale moves downward every week, I'm happy. And I'm not depriving myself. I don't feel that way at all. I'm still enjoying eating. And I'm losing weight at the same time.

This old dog is learning new tricks!!

Thanks for reading,
Janet xo