Well, can't believe I'm back at this point I'd sworn 2 years ago I'd NEVER be back at. Battling the scale ... battling the bulge ... hating the way I look and feel. Embarassed to go anywhere for fear of seeing someone I knew years ago, and they recognize me but can't believe the size I am. Seeing pictures of myself taken recently and wishing I could replace that person in the photo ... ME ... with a skinnier, more confident person. Feeling sorry for myself? Of course ... but ashamed and embarrassed to admit that ... Heck ya.
So for the ... umm let's see ... 5th time, yup FIVE TIMES ... I joined Weight Watchers again today (opted for the online WW, for the 2nd time) I've done it all ... TOPS, Jenny Craig, 3 Day Diet, Atkins ... you name it, I've done it all, and some more than once. Never gone the stomach stapling route, that scares the hell out of me, and I've been told I'm not big enough for that. Well, I can be thankful for small mercies, I guess.
Not going to share my weight in this blog, just going to say I would like to lose 70 pounds ... so yup, I'm way up there. 70 may seem unrealisitic, but I'm going to take it in baby steps, 5 pounds at a time. I've always looked at the big picture, and rushed to get there, only to fail after about 25-30 pounds, my magical plateau.
Hoping that getting my thoughts out there and sharing my battle with other people who may be fighting the same, will give me the boost I need to get through this once and for all. I have a wonderful support team in my hunky hubby and 2 fabulous kids, I'm so blessed.
Gotta go, headin' to the grocery store to stock up ... but only on the "good" stuff.
BTW ... I'm new to this blogging thing, so bear with me ...
Welcome to the world of blogging Janet...I am right there with you so hopefully we can help each other achieve our goals for the last time!
ReplyDeleteWe can do it! Debbie :)
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Janet, this is a great first post. I can sooooo relate and will be following. I joined PEI biggest loser group. Wish me luck!
ReplyDeleteJanet, I read your most recent post (Jan19th) first. Sounds like we're both in that place again eh!?!
ReplyDeleteIf you change your mind and want to join for meetings let me know. I only joined yesterday (which I think might have been the same day as you!) Ironically I was thinking about you because the group leader is the same lady who faciliated our group many years ago in the townhall basement... remember way back then! I will be right along with ya and will encourage you all the way!!